Monday, September 23, 2002
Today was a bad day!! Although It could have been alot worse, I have had better days!! This morning I said something like "Gods I wish I didn't have to go to school" and Ruben told me:"I'm gonna say this only cause i'm your friend!" "You bitch about school to much and it's kinda getting on my nerves!" Now I don't know why but this hurt me very much!! I'm glad he was honest w/me but he has no room to talk!! Granted I guess I do bitch about school to much but I have nothn't else to talk about w/him the only thing we really have incommon is school! And I guess it hurt because he is always going on and on and on about work and the people at his work and I never say anything I listen to him and comfort him about it! A very good example would be Friday afternoon: When he called me all upset and everything because that guy he was supposed to go out w/cancelled on him, did I not go out to lunch w/him and comfort him and let him complain to me about the guy?? And I sit there all quiet and everything while he goes on about work and I never complain because I'm glad that he knows he can come to me for help but yet when I have a problem nobody is ever here for me except for Cynthia! Another thing he did that upset me was on Friday I told him me and Cynthia were going to go to the movies to see Stealing Harvard Saturday and he said he didn't want to go to the movies but then this morning he tells me that Saturday he went to see Swim Fan!! I just don't think he likes hanging around me anymore!! When he is talking to the other girls at school he completly blows me off!! Maybe I'm over reacting or maybe I should tell him how I feel, but it's just I only have 2 really good friends at school (him and Cynthia) and I don't want him to be upset w/me!
But on a lighter note, tomorrow afternoon me and Cynthia are going to go out, we are going to go to dinner and to the library! And I'll finally get to ride in her new car!! I can't wait! Oh and she really did have a family emergencey!! Her uncle was in the hospital and they found out he has cancer! I feel so bad for her!!
Marie @ 4:26 PM