Wednesday, November 13, 2002
Well I'm up now, I didn't even sleep!!! So tomorrow is going to be a long day!! I can't wait to see Kevin and Craig on Conan!!! This will be a new experience. I'm currently watch The Wrong Guyw/comentary!!!! I can't get enough of it!!
Well I thought I'd elaborate on the rest of my day:
It sucked!!! I really cannot win for lossing!! First Ruben and Cynthia complain that I don't talk enough and then when I do talk and I raise my voice just a tiny bit in excitement, he tells me to calm down, and relax!! So I think I'm going to go get a hearing test because I didn't think I was actually talking loud? Then because I don't want him to tell me to calm down again in computer class I will talk soft and they start making fun of me because they think i'm talking to myself!!! So today I finally snaped and said that from now on i'm only going to speek when I am spoken too!! I'm getting tired of it! The damn Joke has gone on way to long!! He also had the nerve to tell me that I need to mengal(sp?) and talk to other people more!! Now please keep under concideration, I have known him since 4th grade, from grade 4 up until now we have been Best Friends!!! You'd think that he would know that I don't talk to other people that damn easily! Now maybe i'm over reacting but man does he try to controll me!!! And I dont' want to say anything to him because I've known him for 9 years, and I really don't want to throw it all away. But even my mom brought it to my attention that I hold things in until I can't take it anymore and then I just snap!! And she says that talking to him would be alot better than snaping on him. Either way I know something bad is going to come out of this!! I don't know why he can't except me for who I am. So what if I don't wear skimpy shirts or bell bottoms! (He keeps telling me that I should dress more cool) I dress comfortable, I have since freakn' Kindergarden. So what if I don't listen to the "cool" music. So what if I don't wear make-up to school!! I have never ever warn that stuff! I have always dressed and listened to the same kind of music. He's known me for 9 years, why all of a sudden does everything have to change? Cynthia said that we are going threw changes and thats fine if he is changed/changing, i'm sure that I have changed in someways too, but why do I have to change w/him?? He keeps nagging at me to get a job. I hear it from my dad and then I have to hear it from him too! Granted I probably really need to get a job, but they are both(cynthia & Ruben) always saying that because I don't have a job that I can just go home, be lazy and sleep! Just because I don't have a "paying" job my life is easy and I have nothing to complain about! What they do forget is that I have 2 little brothers that I help my mom take care of!! She works hard all day and then has to come home and deal with them. Sorry If I think family should come first but I will be damned if i'm going to end up like my father!!!!
Can you tell that I haven't had any sleep? As Ruben would say: "Calm down, relax and take a breath!"LOL!!! At least I still have my sence of humor!!:)
Marie @ 10:34 PM