Sunday, April 20, 2003
OMG, OMG!!! I can't believe this, I just can't believe this!!! I am in shock right now and I dunno what the hell to do w/myself!!!! MY DAD PROPOSED TO DWAYNA WHILE THEY WERE AT THE GRAND CANYON IN AZ!!!! My dad is going to get married again???!!!! I know I should be happy for him and I am, but why do I FEEL SO BAD!! Dwayna is WONDERFUL, and when the told us tonight she was so scared we were going to "freak out" and "not be ok w/it." Which I guess at the moment they told us I wasn't.(it hadn't sunk in yet I guess) She said that we need to tell her how we feel and everything because she doesn't want to upset us or anything like that. So I gave them both a hug and told them congratulations and told them how happy I am for both of them! But now I feel sad and I can't figure out why!!!! She is so damn nice and I like her alot, but the fact that my dad is getting married again pisses me off kinda! He couldn't make it w/my mom but he can get married again to another woman, and he said he'd never get married again! I know I should just grow up and be happy that Dwayna is so increadable nice, and cool and fun to be with, but it's just that I DUNNO WHAT IT IS!!!! I can't figure out why i'm so sad that he's getting married again. I mean part of me is REALLY excited and happy for him, but then the other part is sad and angery, almost let down in a way. I'm so damn pathetic!! I just need to grow up and face the facts, eh? :(
Marie @ 9:50 PM