Tuesday, May 20, 2003
Just a quick little post, while I have some time to be on the internet!!! So far everything has been ok. Mamilla's surgery went very well according to the Doctor. She seems to be doing ok. The problem w/me and my dad, isn't exactly back to normal, but it's also not so bad anymore. I sent him an email telling him how I felt, and it turns out he's been acting the way he is because of Dwayna. According to him, they had some "issues" they had to take care of. Witch I thought was fucked up. If your having problems w/her don't take it out on me! He gave me this big speech about how, Dwayna and him want Tony and me to "Be apart of what they have" and Dwayna really wants us to go places and do things with them because she doesn't want to come between us and our dad. And thats fine, but now my mom is starting to make me feel bad. She is getting jelious of Dwayna, and she's been hinting that I like Dwayna more, and Dwayna is taking her place! So i've been trying not to talk about Dwayna at all. I told my mom she has nothing to be jelious of. Dwayna is the first girlfriend that my dad has been with, that talks to my mom, and has no grude against my mom. Dwayna is way unbelieveable. Like when dad starts to talk about my mom, and I start to take my mom's side, and so does Dwayna. And I've never had one of my dad's girlfriends, actually defend my mom!!!! I just wish my mom could see that just because my dad is an asshole doesn't mean that his girlfriend is a bitch.
Taking care of the baby is quite difficult, but my mom helps as much as she can. Today she yelled at me because changing shitty dipers isn't my thing, and she yelled at me because I was using to many diper wipes. But other than that, the mommy thing isn't that bad. I made breakfast and lunch, played outside quite a bit, which means my allergies are currently kicking my ass!!! The only thing that is bothering me is that I can't watch TV or read my book because he's constently on the move! The only free time I have is during the night! Then I have to reply to emails, by the time I get done w/that it's like 1am, and then trying to fall asleep. Getting up at 7am to take care of Cody for the rest of the day? I am NEVER EVER having babies!!!! Never, never, NEVER!!!! I guess i'm selfish, but I am the type of person that likes to be alone, so not having alone time is so hard! Haha, quick email my ass!
Marie @ 10:35 PM