Saturday, June 07, 2003
As i'm getting ready for Cynthia's Graduation party, it dawns on me that I haven't been to an actual "Party" in years! The party starts at 5pm and doesn't end until 12am. And i'm so worried about Ruben and Cynthia ditching me, even though Ruben swore he wouldn't. I really wish I hadn't promised her i'd go cause i'm actually dreading this. Maybe I will have a good time, but I highly doubt it. If all else fails me and Ruben can just sit and talk I guess. I have no idea. I'm actually going to wear make-up and everything, lol! I just know i'm gonna look like crap! It wouldn't be so bad if she hadn't invited certain girls to the party. They don't like me and they don't talk to me because i'm not "cool" enough I guess. Bitches! So I know Ruben and Cynthia will talk to the "cool" people and then just leave me by myself to feel lonely and stupid! I'm not cut out for crap like this!
Marie @ 3:46 PM