Monday, June 23, 2003
Today is a pretty important "anniversary" or whatever I should call it in my life. 3 years ago from today my Grandma Alice past away. And I haven't been the same since. It is also the day when my KITH obsession/fandom really came into full force! I know it sounds bad but I really dread this day. It brings back all these bad memories. I was laying in bed listening to Stevie Nick's "Edge of Seventeen" when my dad called me to tell me the news. (it's so strange that I can remember exactly what I was doing when he called!) It is the only time that I have EVER really heard my dad cry. He could barely tell me, and even then he didn't have to because I knew what he was going to tell me when the phone rang. And today he called me and he was on the verge of tears again, and I hate it when my dad is upset, because It makes me very upset. I hardly ever hear him get emotionally upset, and he told me he loved me and everything, and I think I should be with him today, but I just know i'll end up crying and getting more upset. I remember the last time I saw her, and when I kissed her goodbye I knew it was the last time I'd see her...........I miss her so much!! She was like a second mother to me!!!
So hopefully I can be alone today and just watch The Monkees. Because of today mom took me out of the house for a while.(She doesn't like it when i'm upset and by myself) So we went to Best Buy and I got 2 new Monkees CDs: Headquarters and The Monkees Anthology.
Marie @ 4:54 PM