Tuesday, August 05, 2003
I HATE LIVING HERE!! It wouldn't be so bad except for the fact that Mike(mom's boyo) is living w/us and he is such a big baby. Ruben said he isn't going to visit me cause he hates Mike and it would be uncomfortable, so I don't blame him. Sharing a room is pure hell! Except for the fact that Tony LOVES the damn Monkees now and he watchs them every chance I give him.
Today wasn't so good though. My mom and Mike got into a fight and I've been worrying about the whole S.S. Card situation. I'm such a fuck up and i just know i've ruined our trip. Anyway my mom told Mike off cause he was acting like a baby and shit and I got happy cause I thought he was gonna move out, but instead they talked so he's staying. :-( THEN, I was worrying even more about the whole S.S. Card thing and all that stress and I think I actually made myself sick!!!! I started running a fever and it's like 80 degrees outside and i'm in a sweat suit!!!! But now I feel a little better. According to Ruben it only takes 4-7 days to get a S.S. Card here so hopefully mom is going to pick up a form for me tomorrow after work and me and Liz will run it to the office first thing Thursday morning! God I hope I don't fuck up this trip. I haven't been myself at all lately, Lizzy even called me today to check up on me. She felt so bad, she thought she upset me. I know this is all my fault even though she doesn't want to tell me. Hopefully all will be well. If nothing else it will just come down to the wire..........I hope!!!!!
Marie @ 11:27 PM