Tuesday, April 06, 2004
Well apparently my dad and Dwayna aren't speaking to me, cause I was sick and didn't go to her stupid shower I hurt her feelings and Tony went to breakfast w/them on Sunday.(I am STILL sick) They told Tony all this crap about how I don't want us to be a family and I don't want to meet her family and it hurt her feelings cause she/they love me and want us to be a family. My dad told Tony that I was probably faking it?! whatthefuck?! Wow what a family, I was ill and didn't wanna crash her party so they get pissed at me? So me not using my head(I guess) I deside to send them an email telling them how I felt.(I finally had enough of it) Well I only got a reply from dad telling me that he loves me and they love me...blahblahblah, trying to make me feel guilty, so I wrote him back and I haven't heard from either of them since. And the sad part...I really don't care. I have enough going on in my head, I don't need their guilt trip bullshit. Is this all my fault? Probably, but I thought it would be better for me to stay home and be misserable then to go to her party and make everyone misserable. I'm so confused it's not funny. I mean i'm not hurt by this and I dont care what they do. My dad has never been there for me why should I be there for him, but what has my mind wondering is "Is this really completely my fault?!" The only thing that really hurts is that w/me not talking to them/them not talking to me i'm not going to get to see my Uncle for my b-day.
Marie @ 6:11 PM