Friday, August 20, 2004
Have you ever been so fuckn' pissed that you actually see RED?! Well thats how I am right at this FUCKN' moment!!! Not only am I angry at most of my damn family but I'm mostly angry at myself. You know my cousin Kristina(Krissy), who is barely going to be 16 next month, who is/was the little sister I never had?! We used to be so close up until about 5 months ago when she didn't return my calls, we lost touch....etc. Ok, can I remind you SHE WAS LIKE MY SISTER?! Well my mom calls me into her room today and says she wants me to sit down she has to tell me something. She starts talking about Krissy and I thought for sure that she was hurt. Little did I know that by the time my mom finished talking to me it was I that would want to hurt Krissy! Kristina who is ONLY 16 FUCKN' YEARS OLD, is DUE on December 26th!!!!! Dumb fuck got PREGNANT!!!! And her cunty ass mother LET her do it! As did her father!!! She LET Krissy's "boyfriend" from FLORIDA come up and stay with them!!!! How fuckn' dumb can you be?!
She PROMISED me when I last saw her that she would use her head and not get pregnant, and she said her and her boyfriend weren't doing anything. SHE PROMISED ME!!!! I was preaching to her about being married before she has sex and how she should use a condom at all times!!!! But apparently just me telling her this didn't work. And I kept telling my mom and my grandma that she was gonna get herself in trouble!! And her Dad(my mom's brother) wouldn't listen to my mom when she tried telling him that he needs to pay more attention because his ex-wife was letting them do whatever the hell they wanted! All my life it seems all I do is tell people "I Told You So!" Nobody ever listens to me, and now my family is all fucked up because of this.
shes only 16 years old, her mom isn't going to help her w/the baby, which is a boy. my mom is going to tell my uncle to go to court and get kristina taken away from her mom. the only draw back is she'd have to live WITH her dad and she (nor can the rest of the family) stand my uncle's wife. i know i dont need to be taking care of another baby but i wish she could come live with us so we could be assured that she was getting helped out, i would help her out no matter what and that hurts me the most. she didn't even call to tell me. i'm not even supposed to know.
when we were little, we'd play "house" and we would always say that one day when we had our own children we'd live together and raise them together, and even though we were cousins we'd still call each other sisters............
all i want to do is curl up into a ball and cry my eyes out. how could she do this
Marie @ 2:15 PM