Thursday, January 06, 2005
**Note to self: try to refrain from posting comments on people's blogs when you're drinking tea w/ameretto. (Sorry, tavie.) :-/ It's bad enough when you do it when you've not been drinking.**
My insomnia is back, oh joy! So here I sit at 4:15am, feeling all lonely with no one to talk to.(not even anyone on AIM) I lay in bed and my mind starts wandering so bad and thoughts come into my head that I have to get up and do something to get my mind off of it. I really wish I had someone around that could encourage me the way my grandma used to. She always gave me an extra push, and told me I could do things if I put my mind to them......I just wish I could realize it myself....it's times like this that I really really miss her. I'm so pathetic because I *know* what is wrong with me, and I know what my problems are, yet I don't fix them. :( I MUST get a job and soon......yet just thinking about going and applying for one scares the hell out of me and makes me want to crawl into bed and never get out.......and as for school......I think that scares me more than having a job, even though I know that I need to go back and at least get my GED....then maybe take a computer course or business course as per my familys insinuations.....see what I mean? I just can't stop.....
On a lighter note, i've been blogging more because i'm in love w/the newly discovered "BlogThis!" on my google tool bar. Way faster and easier than both reg. blogger and Live Journal!
Marie @ 4:26 AM